No Longer a Wanderer

This is the first post I've written since changing my blog title from "Where My Mind Wanders" to "One Step Closer". The change came from the fact that I no longer want to be a wanderer. Right now, I'm experiencing a great deal of change in my life, from coming closer to graduation, to doing something new over the summer for the first time in 3 years, to the normal changes that happen to everyone every day. I'm surrounded by uncertainty and change and it is HARD. I'm not going to say I have no worries or doubts or fears, because I do. I have so many. I struggle with so many terrifying thoughts.

I don't have what it takes.

No one will listen to me.

I'm too weak to move on.

I'll lose touch with all of my friends.

No one can really love me.

And the fears don't end there. But, I believe that God surpasses all fears and all pain. When I have these thoughts, He is faithful in reminding me of the real truth.

I don't have what it takes. But God will be the One working through me.

No one will listen to me. God is always willing to listen.

I'm too weak to move on. But God is my strength.

I'll lose all of my friends. The Body of Christ is stronger than any distance, physical or otherwise. 

No one can really love me. Christ already proved his unfailing love on the Cross.

I don't want to wander through a sea of opportunities and thoughts day after day. It isn't about choosing the right opportunities. It's not even about the opportunities. No matter what opportunities I choose or pass up in my life, no matter who I meet or who I lose touch with, and no matter how many times I fail, I want to move towards the Lord in everything I do. In my successes and my failures. In my high points and my low points.

I don't want to wander. I want purpose. I want to have a destination. My destination is Christ. My journey in this life is to move closer to Him in every opportunity, every day.

 I'm done wandering.